Leech spirit and discernment of spirits

 I've been attacked by leech spirits

there was a woman begging for money. her eyelashes were like dark arrows and her eyes were wet and glassy, her face was swollen.

i thoughti  should give her $2 first only then ask her why she's out there. i was measuring mroe money in my heart to see if God wanted to give to her and how much. It took me time I still wasn't sure in the end maybe because of my health issues, or because I didn't have enough faith in the past i don't know, to stabilise myself. So i decided to give her small amount nad proceed from there. She said she was supposed to go to work that day but didn't go so she was collecting money for food. We were at the stairs with people passing by and i was uncomfortable for various reasons I couldn't think straight, i also didn't know, should i get up, then think outside before going down, or should I give her there? I couldn't decide but I felt tired. So I grabbed more money to give her. I wouldn't write this to show I gave money, the bible says not to let others know, I am writing it becuase I felt like someone had pinched something out of me. Like a bad feeling. So I figured it must have been a leech. Maybe she was fakely expressing more need for sympathy or help than what would be appropriate, and I got lost in that energy. Maybe I got lost because I didn't have discernment? Because I sinned and also didn't properly do the things I need to do to get the discernment.  I thought maybe discernment is differentiaing one thing from another. An unfair leech spirit vs what would be in my heart to give and what would God want me to give.

it looked similar to that of another homeless guy who kept begging people for a ciggarratte. his legs were hurt apparently when he worked as a chef, because he overworked them. he thought h1713r was right. what i thought is what if he looked down on disabled people and then became disabled because he overworked himself to keep proving hes's superior. or maybe others wanted too much from him idk i kin da doubt that tho. in the end he sent me to buy a patron alcohol for him he gave me the money its just that he struggled to walk himself. in retrospect i shouldnt have done it. the guy next to him told me he was using me and had his head dwon when i left. i think he was right. it was stupid of me. i was kinda afraid of disagreeing with him because i'd have to come off too mean, i  dont fully know if thats related to my jaw issues, strugglign to regulate my tone and stuff, if i'd disagreed with him. ia lso liejk to hurt people who dontu nderstand basic language.

i also hated that other peopel would consider someone who says no to be just shy and to need encouragement to be pushed and pressured. i hated that. why cant u make ur own decisions but want someone else to push and pressure you? was it fair of me to judge them that way? maybe we are all different. maybe narcissims is related to struggling too much to deal with all other people's differences, althought maybe it's that they always expect you to do more for them, than they to you, and theres different people who each feel superior and don't want to do stuff for you, so you become exhausted form everybody;'s bullshit and and domineering.